I've read...
&
I'm sorry to everyone who feels the same way
you guys did not do anything wrong.
it's not that i don't want to share with you guys,
it's because i know you guys wouldn't be able to help me,
because it's fragile and not easily fixed.
furthermore,
I've tried my best. but still it didn't work.
I'm sorry about the way
I've been treating everyone of you.
it's just that
I've been feeling down,
& i know you guys can see that too.
but for now, i just want to be alone.
not really alone as 'alone',
but 'alone' as in with who
I'm comfortable
sharing my problems with.
& no,
I'm not treating you guys as my replacements.
please don't misunderstand. i need space now.
i don't know how long
I'm going to take,
but i know it'll be quite long.
I'm not sacrificing the friendship that we had
just to save another.
both are equally important,
but
I'm having problems with the other more.
& yes i am trying very hard to save
that friendship.
& sorry for neglecting the one i already had.
I'm not angry with
her, not angry with you guys.
I'm angry and disappointed with myself.
please stop saying about
her alright?
i know
I've been feeling down and neglecting you guys,
but don't drag
her into the picture.
i admit to you guys now,
that i still love
her. i have to admit,
&
I've made it clear here.
i know you guys would think
she'snot worth the wait or to be with,
but i don't care about what you
guys think because i love
her for who
she is.
I'm sorry if i said any wrong
things that i shouldn't have said.
but
I'm letting out my feelings,
so that none is kept from you guys.
so please, don't talk bad about
her,
don't drag
her into the picture.
she's not to blame, i am.
i caused this misunderstanding among us.
so once again, i beg from you guys,
don't talk bad about
her.
if you want to talk bad about me,
I'm fine with it, but not about
her.
i know you guys may have been
gossipping about us, please stop.
especially concerning
her.
if it's about me, i don't mind.
i know it's kind of lame and childish
to do this through blogging.
but since it was started
right here on blogger, i shall continue.
i hope i didn't offend anyone in this post.
and last but not least,
i hope
I've made myself clear to you guys
about my feelings towards
her.
so please understand.
I'm sorry once again.
just a request, don't
backstab her. thanks [: